Sushi

I don't know if I ever said sorry
If I ever apologized like I know I properly could
But there were many times that I hurt you
Many times "sorry" would do no good
Yet, the silent scrolling of memories trapped in a box from "a long time ago"
Remind me that there are things I'm not proud of
Things that deserve a reprise
Things that need truth
To replace the broken bed of lies
Things I could give you to say this was all my fault
Things I could I buy, to ease the pain I'd brought
But then those "things" just wouldn't do
Memories of things dead
But I can't help but recall what all we went through
Neither of us was ready for what mistakes we were sure to make
Both of us took the plunge, not knowing the chances we had to take
And I didn't ever tell you, that you really are the pretty package from Santa Claus
Maybe that's too cliché
But woman, you are

Tried to deflower the sweetest gift that I could have turned sour,
But your Father had another plan
Guess I wasn't ready to be your man
I wasn't much of one at all.
A man-child rolling thru a life undeserving of the beauty whose name I did call.
..........And you stayed.
Why?
I should have done right by you
I shol thought I had everything figured out,
But it seems you never really know what real is about
Took chances I didn't need to
Did dances I knew wouldn't please you
Grew up a mean magnifying glass ant hill kid who used to tease you
And you stayed
I shouldn't look at this soul capture
Maybe the Aboriginals had it right
There is a stolen part of life that flashes in that light
Hm. I don't know why I never said I was wrong
.....not outright
...............and still
with all this time gone
I devote pages of a frozen journal to what I know I chose
::laughs::
Funny how much it can hurt so far past it
Part of growin up I suppose
Sorry
...........is the man who knows
That this is the way time flows
Forward
And that is just the way love goes