Today I took out my earrings and all my jewelry from around my neck and gave myself an honest going over in the mirror. What I discovered: No I'm not perfect. And I have many things I still have to learn, but at this point in my life I am going to dedicate myself towards loving me more. I always tell my mom that I am so vain, because I spend a good deal of time making my peace with my reflection. But truth be told, there are a lot of things that I don't like about myself. I have acne that is awful sometimes. I have really angular features that some people tell me make my face look evil. I have pointy eye brows that girls always tell me need to be arched.
I have big eyes that some people in my childhood spent a good deal of time making me hate. I have a really long beard that all of my friends insist I cut. But I have learned to love these things about me. No, they are not what everyone is going to consider ideal or flawless. And no, I am not going to be Mr. Universe. But I have grown content with just being Mr. King. So many times in life we spend all of time trying to make other people happy and end up hating ourselves for it. We bend over backwards for to suit other individuals' needs to placate them and in the end they still aren't satisfied. Many R&B artists have tried to contextualized this sort of dilemma that we as human beings have to deal with. The choice with being selfless and being selfish.
Today, I have to decided to land on the -ish side of the dichotomy. What'd Michael Jackson say? "I'm starting with the man in the mirror." Not to say that I won't still give willing to other people, but at some point you have to love on yourself before you go off trying to give away the limited joy in your own heart. I figure if I love myself enough, then the joy will multiply within me and I will have a surplus of contentment to hand out. But until that time, I have to work on me. I like the way that Brandy says it. Her song "Camouflage" and really her whole album "Human" spends a good deal of time commenting on the state of Humanity.
Making your peace with your own flaws and learning to accept the mistakes that you have made. If you have a chance you should really give the cd an honest listen. Its message is the same one I am trying to convey here. We as a people, as human beings cannot love and heal the world until we first heal ourselves. I'm staring at my reflection right now, and every thing is not in perfect proportion, but one day it will be. I love me. And it's time we all started saying that to ourselves more.
Today I took out my earrings and all my jewelry from around my neck and gave myself an honest going over in the mirror. What I discovered: No I'm not perfect. And I have many things I still have to learn, but at this point in my life I am going to dedicate myself towards loving me more. I always tell my mom that I am so vain, because I spend a good deal of time making my peace with my reflection. But truth be told, there are a lot of things that I don't like about myself. I have acne that is awful sometimes. I have really angular features that some people tell me make my face look evil. I have pointy eye brows that girls always tell me need to be arched.
I have big eyes that some people in my childhood spent a good deal of time making me hate. I have a really long beard that all of my friends insist I cut. But I have learned to love these things about me. No, they are not what everyone is going to consider ideal or flawless. And no, I am not going to be Mr. Universe. But I have grown content with just being Mr. King. So many times in life we spend all of time trying to make other people happy and end up hating ourselves for it. We bend over backwards for to suit other individuals' needs to placate them and in the end they still aren't satisfied. Many R&B artists have tried to contextualized this sort of dilemma that we as human beings have to deal with. The choice with being selfless and being selfish.
Today, I have to decided to land on the -ish side of the dichotomy. What'd Michael Jackson say? "I'm starting with the man in the mirror." Not to say that I won't still give willing to other people, but at some point you have to love on yourself before you go off trying to give away the limited joy in your own heart. I figure if I love myself enough, then the joy will multiply within me and I will have a surplus of contentment to hand out. But until that time, I have to work on me. I like the way that Brandy says it. Her song "Camouflage" and really her whole album "Human" spends a good deal of time commenting on the state of Humanity.
Making your peace with your own flaws and learning to accept the mistakes that you have made. If you have a chance you should really give the cd an honest listen. Its message is the same one I am trying to convey here. We as a people, as human beings cannot love and heal the world until we first heal ourselves. I'm staring at my reflection right now, and every thing is not in perfect proportion, but one day it will be. I love me. And it's time we all started saying that to ourselves more.
It’s 5:36 p.m. and I just endured the ATL traffic. Before I head off to the gym I thought perhaps I would unwind and see what’s on the Corners of Mr. King’s mind.
ReplyDeleteJust before I begin to delve into your spellbinding spoken word, I’m embraced by the warm thought provoking lyrical harmonies of Brandy ~ Camouflage. Instantly, my heart begins to palpate rapidly as if it’s trying to sigh.
I begin to read One Step Closer, as a tear drop seeps out the corner of my eye.
One Step. . . Perhaps maybe two. . . I think I‘ve been rejected so much Closer doesn’t even seem near.
Vanity has been my nemesis for thirty years now, and no matter how happy I appear on the outside. My façade perhaps will never truly reveal the sadness that consumes me within.
I deal with acne, body image, flaws, depression, impression, but, more importantly that concept of what it means to be and feel loved.
I think my candidness about my insecurities has opened up a flood gate of emotions that I thought I tucked away. But, I thank you today Mr. King because I needed to hear out loud that I can love “myself enough that joy will multiply within me and I will have a surplus of contentment to hand out”.
My sincerity, laughter, and generosity – so out ways the vanity that I show to the world. Yet, maybe one day I will be One Step Closer to unmasking the veil and reveal Happiness, from the inside out that so pure.
Because, truly I believe that’s my ultimate cure!
YOU KNOW WHAT YOU SHOULD REALLY HEAR,
ReplyDelete"WE ARE SO VAIN, WE EVEN CARE FOR THE OPINIONS OF THOSE WHOM WHICH WE DO NOT CARE FOR"
- WISE MAN
What I would say is work on yourself in the inside and it shall shine through the outside giving you a soft light magnetic glow of truth and fulfillment. Others will see and feel the radiance and vibrancy and honestly want of that and see how it works and bring some genuine love to it. That you shall receive for working so hard on such an imperfect but meaningful part of your life and that is yourself.
The road to self satisfaction is bumpy and filled with snakes and persuasive devils, but it is you that has to gather up the strength and find the tools along the way after you conquer each level to get to where you are comfortable and sensible.
*DELLA!